Ventilation

I inhaled a long time ago. I've been holding my breath ever since. I want to let go, and letting go, I'll be albe to hold on.. It's like trying to hold love. I know I can't touch it, but I can feel it. I want to have it, forever. My mediator says I will. But I'm not sure If I've ever loved.. And when I question it, it makes me doubt even more. So I hope and I dream. And always will.